woke up at 5.30, opened the mailbox and found the photo instantly - in two clicks - how possible - with a few hundreds emails you sent me then? the one of you kissing me - all hair - half photo red half photo black and the white of my neck and your your face. all blurred. taken in the rain in march in barcelona gotico.

and drowning, grabbed onto the phone. you voice soft from the sleep. breath you said.breath.

how?